Friday 21 October 2005

一样的夏天

窗外的雨刚刚停
午后气息
浓浓地才散去
迷迷糊糊张开眼
刚刚的梦 我似乎
在瞬间看见你

Oh my god 已经
不知多久没想起
Oh~ Oh~

我淡淡地想着你
那年夏天 最后的那一天
你轻轻地唱着歌
未曾感受的温柔
模糊我的双眼
终于也可以
开始一个人看明天

Oh~ Oh~yeah
你放下我 走向前

Oh~ 不见 不见了你给的回忆
为什么 曾经深刻的
消失了 没有原因
我的心 已经没有
想起你的空隙

Oh I 没想起不是忘记
OH I 没想起你是平静

想起了你
是想起那样一个夏天

Tuesday 18 October 2005

樂天派

樂天派 作曲:彭學斌@口袋音樂 填詞:彭學斌@口袋音樂 編曲:Nai Kong

你沒接我的電話 理由雖然很牽強 笑著說 

你去吧 寂寞卻開始流浪 你發呆時間變長 

我有不祥的預感 卻只猜了一下 一秒後回到你身旁

*把沉默把體諒 當成愛你的力量  

不管別人說我是愛你的傻瓜*

#我以為愛會一直存在  到頭來我只是樂天派  

不應該太不應該相信等待  一定會有例外  

Everything is gonna be alright  

我明白就算我再不明白  

Say Goodbye Bye Say Goodbye 我的愛

希望總是在前方 甚麼事都往好處想

回來又能怎樣 愛再也不一樣

Say Goodbye Bye Say Goodbye 我的愛

Pan Pac- The Atrium



Yesterday, I was there with a friend.
quite a cozy place.
with live music.

Like the decor and
the colours are very dream like.
We picked the seat at the bar area
since there are only 2 of us.
A first time for me.
I hardly stay near the bar area.
My clubing style is alway very lay back and relax
I will alway find a nice sofa seat and relax in it.
I really mean"relax" and unglam
But at bar area
it was different
really interesting.......
I like it.....
coz i still can look at
the bartender la and
see him do his mixing.....
Occasionally toking to u...=)
ha ha sort of remind me of
Chunking express.
Lin Qing xia was at the bar area
drinking alone.
The only lacking thing is a cigartte
which i hardly/ seldom/dun touch.
hm....maybe a wig
and Jin Chen wu
(of coz, my companion that day also can la)

Oh and Finally
found the Tequila Sunrise
that resemble the first TS
my friend mixed for me.
according to him
the way to drink Tequila Sunrise is :
with a straw and
in one breath drink
suck up all the drink fro the bottom of the tall glass
and all the way up.
deal to density,
tequila is alway on the top
so u sort of drink up
all the orange concoctionand
then fellow by the tequila.
xian tian hou gu hm......
dunnoe did my friend sa bo me or not?
coz if i drink like that i will be drunk b4 i can say bottom up.
Anyway, i always like this cocktail.
it look beautiful and it taste nice

Too bad we didnt stay for long......
Juz warm up a little and
it was abt time to go off already.
The last time when i was at
The bar
My friend and I stay till 1.30am
I felt the nite is still young
ha ha ha
anyway,
suppose to work today.
We all looked tired.

Our ulimate destiny

Has been discussing the matter of death with a friend today.
death.....what a scary words.
I m afraid of death.
Not me but for my love one.
But i noe ...
It is part of life ...
my advice to my friend
treasure whatever time there is
u cant afford to be indifferent
At a point of my life
i was visiting granny in a Hospice almost everyday
the sadest but the most enriching months for me.
the last few days/months/ moments you share with a love one
-Precious
I see so much from people who has only a few months left.
some chose to be miserable
some chose to have a happy outlook.
Some has hardly anyone visiting them
some has visitors everyday
some decorate theire sleeping area with pix
some stay there long enough to grow potted plants.
some even find times to noe people aro them.......
knowing fully well that they wont be there
It is all a choice.

Ell Pollo Loco

Ha ha my friend response to my Sunday blog. Bring back so much more memories. One more memory to complete the puzzle.Are u reading this? i wondered? =)
Jolene : By the way, miss bing, i had a hot mocha latte!Yup Millenia Walk did give me alot of wonderful memories. My first job was being a waitress in a mexico, spanish fastfood chain, Ell Pollo Loco, Wild Chicken(Bing: Brad Pitt use to work in Wild chicken in California. I wonder if this restaurant is still around) in english. hm... sound weird name isn't it? Been there for abt 7 months. The envoirnment there was much nicer than it is now. After the renovation and new location of the shops, seems that Millenia Walk lose it's sophiscated touch.The beautiful fountain there just behind our restuarant.. in the nite time combine with the quietness of the surrounding and the breeze that comes along. (Bing: ya, with a bottle of sparkling apple juice from the cooler.) So nice and comfortable is the only feeling that i can describe.The late nite chat after closing under the starry sky, margaritas, michael, his fightful day!Patricia, the only female manager, aunty irene, 12 hrs of working, covered 4 stations on Valentine day( Bing: I rememdered that. The scariest valentine time i ever have.), Wang, the mighty ah neh to Geylang, how to get a nice chop of the chicken without seeing the bones! Chantel and Thomas the couple(Bing: how can i forget them. The in designer brand back then). Wee yeow(ooh...) and the kiss and the love letter to miss bing!(Bing: when was this? howcome i dun rememder? who huh?) :)Yup and also to a poor security guard whom had helped me during one nite's closing. He helped me to push the big rubbish bin all the way to the other side to throw the rubbish for me. (Bing: U so good. hOWCOME no one help me before.........not fine.....who is that security guy? u think he is still aro?) Coz he was on duty and i saw him being scolded by his supervisor! Ooh... so sorie abt that and i dun hv any chance to tell him.. well i dun get to see him 2nd time anymore, hope he did not get into any trouble becoz of me. :)................... hehe ... sighz poor me eating up my books now.. @.@ Enjoy hor.. and also like i say.. the bet is never over yet!

Sunday 16 October 2005

millenia walk



Millenia Walk

The backyard of it anyway

Hardly anyone is there

We have not went there for a long long time

Jolene and I was there for a long time

3 hrs?? We were sitting outside o'brien

me with a cup of irish cream coffee.

Jo, what did u have? I forgot.....anyway, we will

talking abt all sorts of things. ke ke ke so enjoyable....

And our bet. 2 weeks were the duration.

I really didnt expect that bet to end so fast.

Eventhough i won, it still feel bloody bitter . (at least i think so la)

Anyway, so much memories there

at least 6 months of my life was spent there.

waitressing. one big family.

The fountain, the late nite chat under the starry sky, the sea breeze, the corona, the birthday cakes, michael,

his crazy jokes, patricia, aunty irene,12 hr working, Wang,

ah neh, wild chicken, fragant rice,

my pair our Dr martene, my first sunrise tequila and magarita,

boardwalk, the late nite visit from somone, jack in the box, wee yeow, the toilet, long carpark,

Andy.....what else is there?

Oh my godness

my head is hurting again

dun understand

why it refused to go away.

sigh..........

還剩下什麼

在一個非常寧靜
而美麗的小城,
有一對非常恩愛的戀人,
他們每天都去海邊看日出,
晚上去海邊送夕陽,
每個見過他們的人
都向他們投來羡慕的目光。

可是
有一天,在一場車禍中,
女孩不幸受了重傷,
她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上,
幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。
白天,男孩就守在床前
不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人;

晚上,他就跑到小城的教堂裏向上帝禱告,
他已經哭乾了眼淚。

一個月過去了,
女孩仍然昏睡著,
而男孩早已憔悴不堪了,
但他仍苦苦地支撐著。

終於有一天,
上帝被這個癡情的男孩感動了。
於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。
上帝問他:
“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎?”

男孩毫不猶豫地回答:
“我願意!”

上帝說:
“那好吧,我可以讓你的戀人很快醒
過來,但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓,你願意嗎?”

男孩聽了,
還是堅定地回答道:
“我願意!”

天亮了,
男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓,
他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。
女孩真的醒了,
而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼,
可惜他聽不到。

幾天後,
女孩便康復出院了,
但是她並不快樂。
她四處打聽著男孩的下落,
但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪里。
女孩整天不停地尋找著,
然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞
在她身邊,只是他不會呼喊,不會擁抱,
他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。

夏天過去了,
秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉,
蜻蜓不得不離開這裏。
於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。
他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉,
用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭,
然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。

轉眼間,春天來了,
蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。
然而,她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊 的男人,
蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。
人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重,
描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良、 可愛,
還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然,
當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。

蜻蜓傷心極了,
在接下來的幾天中,
他常常會看到那個男人
帶著自己的戀人在海邊 看日出,
晚上又在海邊看日落,
而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外,
什麼也做不了。

這一年的夏天特別長,
蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著,
他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。
她和那男人之間的喃喃細語,
他和她快樂的笑聲,
都令他窒息。

第三年的夏天,
蜻蜓已不再常常
去看望自己的戀人了。
她的肩被男醫生輕擁著,
臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著,
根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓,
更沒有心情去懷念過去。

上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。
就在最後一天,
蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。
蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂,
落在上帝的肩膀上,
他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說:
我願意!

他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上。
然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著,蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。

上帝歎息著:
“你後悔了嗎?”

蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚:
“沒有!”

上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說:
"那麼,明天你就可以變回你自己了。"

蜻蜓搖了搖頭:
“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧…”

有些緣分是註定要失去的,
有些緣分是永遠不會有好結果的。
愛一個人不一定要擁有,
但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他.

three hearts two thoughts =p

Saturday 15 October 2005

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Monday 10 October 2005

london dream

I "saw" Janice on msn today. All the way from London.
She leave for London on friday. seen like a lot of my friends are all there.
Really envy her.

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Monday 3 October 2005

snailing around


Muz be all the rain lately
that have driven all the snails out of their comfort.
Has been seeing a few of them crawling around.....
crawling to whatever place they are heading......
I was on my way to work this morning,
i saw a dead snail in the middle of the pathway.
Hm........seeingly
trying to cross pathway that
lead to the big field across.
quite sad isnt it........
Imagine yourself as the snail
seeing the lush green of field.....
thinking of a better life on the other side....
u started slowly on ur journey.....
and ................
what's a snail's life...........

Sunday 2 October 2005

wala wala

Finally found a pub that play BANDSOUND
Wala Wala
The expected- The band name
Lead Vocal is a rock chick....
cool gal with an attiude
powerful vocal
great guitarist and drummer
shld hear how they play the guitar
how They rock the house MAN
Guitars,DrumsKeyboard,crowds and
all the great songs all the way
from Deep purple era to green days
absolutely went crazy
when they play nirvana 's come as you are
and one other that i thot is metallical....
shld see how the crowd cheer
HeadbangING to the beat and doing e air guitar .
Rock my blues always

Anyway,
While we were enjoying to the music,
we heard one guy talking very loudly behind us.
Dun remember what he was yelping abt ,
all we heard was F**K here and F**K that.
Everything is end with a F**K F**K F**K F**K

I am usually quite tolerant to a little vulgar language.
I think it is a way of expression and release stream.
But that guy was carrying it to a whole new level.
I was amused, muz see who this "gentle"man was.....
We turned to look
and saw this 40sh Chinese man talking
to a Caucasian man in his " all so slang" American English.
of coz......Garnished with his fave curse word
The best part.......
his American turned out to be a English man from England.
What a laugh? .......

seeing Red

I was reading today newspaper and
found an article that is very interesting.
Seeing Red.
How odd ? coz the other day ,
i was discussing the same issue wi my friend.
Feel like sharing it with u guys and a reminder for myself.

How to cool it
- Relax-Breathe deeply from your diaphragm,
all the way down to your stomach
-Slowly repeat a calm word like "relax" while breathing deeply.
-Visualise a relaxing experience-
Practise these techniques daily and
use them when you're in a tense situation

Change your thoughts
-When u're angry, your thinking can get exaggerated and overly dramatic.
Replace these thoughts with more rational ones.

-Dun go : "Everything's ruined"
Tell yourself : "It's frustrating,
but it's not the end of the world and
getting angry is not going to fix it"

-Remind yourself that the world is not "Out to get you"

Use Humour
-Dun take yourself too seriously. Learn to let go of the small stuff

Saturday 1 October 2005

Forrest Gump

I finally bought Forrest Gump DVD
after so many years has gone by.
I realised that whenever I m upset
i would alway go back to the famous line of Gump
"Life is like a box of chocolate,
coz u never noe what u will get."

How true......
after 27 yrs of existence on Planet Earth
I came to realised that
Things changes
friend changes
situation changes
relationship changes
Changes is constant factor of life
sadness dun last
trouble dun last
worry dun last
even happiness is juz a passing moment
All an illusion of life
Take it lightly with a pitch of salt
and move on
And hope for the best

Life has never been really smooth sealing for me
(of coz, i cant complain. there are worse out there.)
when i relate certain part of the story to my friend now,
it felt like sombody else story.
The more I said it,
the more dilute it becomes,
less important.
Those memories have been replace by
something more important
What u think is important now,
might not seen as important years later
even hours later as a matter of fact
That's life.

Ever heard of James Blunt "You are beauitful" ?
the opening line is "My life is brillant"
My life feel like that right now.
like the first ray of sunlight
peeping thru the cloub
If u been thru real trouble time
U will understand how I feel now...ke ke
But....
How long does it last?
i dunnoe.
But I tresured this moment of my life
I felt truely contented.

Someone commented that
I viewed everything too seriously.
with too much emotion
That hurts
Maybe that true ........
but that me...............

I have being thru a stage
where I am totally indiferent to things around me
withdraw into my own shell and
refused to come out
I still prefer the " me" now.
Maybe I shld try to be milder
but i will still be the same old Yen Wei

I m sentimental
but i hardly shows it
Why borther
when people aro hardly seen to care....
(jo, that is wat u complain abt me rite? I hide it better then u ma )

I m not good at rememdering things
but I rememder all the little gesture that
ppl has done for me time to time.
sweet and it touches my heart :
#That MP3 CD my friend burn for me,
with e one songs (the rainbow connection)
that I really liked
He put it in without me asking him to.
I didnt noe he rememdered ,
but of coz....
maybe he thought i would like it too
which he has rightly guessed
#My friend shoulder that I cried on
when I was devastated.
(try crying all the way from Yishun to Cityhall on a trian
oh well....bloody embarrassing)
# the one person that rememdered
the silliest comment i have made
and repeat it month later-matter of factly
# I have heard a lot of birthday songs in my life,
but that particlar 250620052355
was really sweet.
Shld be really nice
to have a friend like him.
# he who always make me laugh
when I was too tense up- really silly joke.
I alway gave him my famous deadpan look.

to be cont

friends i met along the way

-
Type of friends I ve met so far in my life.....
# Some friends
I disliked them frm the very 1st meet up
But some how along the way
We got to know each other better n become the best of friend
# Some friends,
They r always there,
Great companion but missing chemistry
I expect them to come and go....
But they r with me the longest
Thru thick n thin
# Some friends,
I thought will b buddies for life
But along the way
we juz drift apart...
even lossing contact wif each other
# gd n wise friends,
comes in all ages/education/religious/sexes/family bkgrd......
Its their mindset n maturity that matter
# Some friends,
I m curious to know
dun mind making e first move
some work out, some doesnt but no regret. at least i tried
# Some friends,
sigh................

How does one explain the different chemical reaction with people?